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[04 Nov 2009|02:43pm] |
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I cannot say too much except there has been up's and there has been down's. ` I relapsed - December 9
` Bill died - ?
` Frank's mommy died - ?
` Liz's daddy died - March 25 * I stopped my psychotic meds for a good 3-4 months, and now I'm back on meds. Effexor XR and Abilify.
* I am back in school (MontCo) for drug/alcohol counseling.
* I will have 11 months clean and serene in six days.
* Andrew, Liz, Christine and I went on a trip to Disney World for Mickey's Halloween Party.
* I like someone...who shall remain nameless. ahemahemjaredrabenoldahemahem. Even though he treats me like shit, and he has to be high to hang out with me. Yeah, Andrew hit the nail on the head -- I gravitate towards guys who degrade and treat me horribly.
* Which leads me to jobs...I had a job at Target (where I met nameless). Notice the HAD. Yeah, I got fired. But now, I am back in Dining Services at Spring Mill Presbyterian Village.
* We have a new addition to the Dippolito family. Dylan. Mikey and his girlfriend Stephanie had a baby. Ralph and Janet got married. Uhh, that's about it.
=)
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| for my Andrew. |
[22 Sep 2008|01:36am] |
well here I am 3 months and 22 days later.
what's been up with me?
hmm!
I went into another psychatric hospital for my stupid mental illness of psychosis.
this time it was Building 50 in Norristown.
there I had what was the best / worst week ever.
I am put on (I think) the right medication. Haldol, Lithium and Trazadone.
getting out of there, I returned to work at Wawa.
July 3, 2008 - I had made a big mistake which was threatening Karen Steinhauer.
that resulted in termination.
it's been a little over 2 months and I still remain un-employed.
July 2, 2008 - POP!
me and my ex-boyfriend Mike went out for 1 month and 25 days. (06/13/2008 -- 08/07/2008)
since that I've made a promise to myself to focus on ME other than boys.
I'm involved in Narcotics Anonymous (N.A.) for my addiction to the good ol' mary jane.
which today (Sunday), I am one hundred nineteen days clean.
I renewed my FAFSA application and hopefully it gets processed in time for spring semester at MontCo.
I'm pretty hardcore about my major, NOW. before it was just Liberal Arts, now I'm changing it to Human Services.
the Drug and Alcohol studies option is most appealing to me since well, I'm living it.
I would like to believe I have the same friends I had before I went into 50. but it's not true.
I had lost friends due to my "illness". those of which didn't want to deal with me. or thought I had made up stories about their family members.
with my outspoken-ness and opinions of some of the friends I have...caused them not to like me.
Disney World. I went there (ALL ON MY OWN!) from August 13th to the 15th. that was solitary to visit my Andrew, and hopefully hang with him in the happiest place on earth. it wasn't going according to plan, since he had to work. but I had found out he got off. so it was on! we met the characters I wanted to meet (i.e. Ariel & Beast). too bad that me and Andrew couldn't have a sunny day, it was a rainy day.
family. they'll always be there. even though I may disagree or hate them through whatever...they're still my family. currently on my shit list, is my Uncle Mike and cousin Melanie.
that's all I got.
thanks for reading...ANDREW!
:-D
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[26 Nov 2005|02:46am] |
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[24 Nov 2005|12:07am] |
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Monday. School. Checked the schedule at Wawa, and I work that day. So yeah... no nappy poo. Work was pretty good, I suppose. Anywho.
Tuesday. School, again. Yup. After school, I took my nap. And what a good nap it was. And then off to Spring Mill for dinner with Nora. That was awesome. Alicia was our waitress, server girl. I gave her a 2 dollar tip. Lol. Anywho, about 2 hours, just chatting and looking at her old photo album. Lol. Then we just chilled in the dining room like oldy times with Mike, Lauren, Christina, and Alicia. Hmm.. anyway.
Wednesday. School. Yup, I woke up with my monthly bill. SPLENDID! Anyway... umm, so I came home and slept until like, Andrew came home from work. And we went out. Him, his sister, me, and Alphanso to go see Just Friends. Then off to Wendy's and I saw Wes and John Pack. Took Alphanso home, and then went back to Wendy's. LMAO!
Anyway... I think I have bronchitis. Again. Lol.
I'm done.
Comments are always nice. HINT HINT ANDREW.
ByE!
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[20 Nov 2005|11:14pm] |
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Sunday, November 20
I didn't go to church. Because I had a tummy ache. And I talked to Alphanso for a little. Then some more later. Watched Sweet Home Alabama. Umm... me and Alphanso = back on good terms. Thank goodness. Anywho. I completed some homework, not all though. Err, ate my mom-mom's yummy spaghetti and meatballs.
Umm... right now: Talking to Andrew. And we're conquering Europe during 2008. Then hanging ourselves after Brandi and Billy's wedding. Yeah, don't take this as a cry for help. But as a blessing. Really... just leave him be at our single train station. Bring me back to him, ASAP!
ERR... life sucks. Chris wants to flaunt his girlfriend, SAM off. Bitch. She's hot, and I'm not. I'm done.
Andrew, I like comments.
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[20 Nov 2005|07:25pm] |
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[20 Nov 2005|12:32am] |
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Friday, November 18
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMBER!!
Yeah, it was Amber's birthday. And school, was alright. I played phone tag with Brandi during English. Talked to Andrew during some of English. During art, we filmed our i-Pod commercial. Anywho...
I dropped off Jess and Maria at their homes. Came home, and talked with Andrew. He went to work, I went to sleep. Woke up in time for yummy homemade pizza, and went off to Starbucks for some yummy ... yeah, my Starbucks usual. a tall, Caramel Frap. with whipped creme and loads of the flavored syrup! Lol. Anywho...
Went to Amber's party. Got Andrew, but then dropped him off on Fayette. Then: him, Brandi, and Billy came to the par-tay. And I was a lot happier (right Gia?)... anywho. Then everything gets a little blurry. I remember smoking with Steve Pierro and Tracy. But who knows what else. Apparently Andrew drove me home. Whatever.
Saturday, November 19
Woke up, did nothing at all around the house, Golden Dragon with Andrew, then Genuardi's, then I went home, napped, went and got Maria, went to work, worked, LeAnne was a biatch, but nicer once she had her DIET PEPSI (I got it that time), sighhh... to my surprise Andrew was in the parking lot. And so was Alphanso! &heartbreak;
Sighhh...I followed Andrew all the way to Leeland for Maria's surprise of Loftus and flowers and a pineapple! Happiness.
Tried talking to Alphanso, didn't work = sadness. Week's hiatus has now been extended. And it sucks. He means a lot. And the whole not talking to him, is tearing me up inside. I have to fake smile, and pretend nothing's bothering me. I'm good at this game. That's all it's ever been. Pretending nothing bothers me, when deep down it does. And I'm sure the few that are true, knows that. And knows it well. Sighhh, I haven't told you guys that I love you so fucking much.
ABC Order .. don't be upset.
Alicia, Alphanso, Amber, Andrew, Billy, Brandi ... yeah, I love you guys. NEVER change. Please?
Sighhh...
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[17 Nov 2005|11:17pm] |
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Work sucked. Try spilling soup on a guest, getting all worked up about it and bawling my eyes out and just hyperventalating ... etc etc. My friend, well, who knows what the hell he is anymore ... JAMES fucking seemed as if he didn't care. Whatever, we're having conflict. And who knows what's going to become of this. Either friends no more, or back to normal. Anywho.
I have school tomorrow, and don't feel like going. My grandmom- all day wants to criticize me and just be on my ass CONSTANTLY then as I look as if I'm going to cry, she's going say, "Why are you going to cry?" Dude... I cannot take this shit anymore. I say I cannot wait for graduation, but really I can. I say I cannot wait until I'm legal, but I can. I just wish first semester could be done with, and then it's fun-filled spring semester. Pssh, yeah right.
I'm off to go chat to Andrew.
Because he's my friend, and I love him dearly. Shh, he doesn't know that.
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[17 Nov 2005|01:14pm] |
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Tuesday ... I didn't get a nap. And work wasn't that bad. Then I just sat on the computer, and phone all night. Being a douche bag with Andrew. It was fun. It was a complete, and official day 4.
Wednesday (day 5) ... School was alright. Blizzard finally was in! Just not when I came in. I love Tunick! He's fucking awesome. Anywho, I drove Devon home. And went to work. Yeah, work wasn't bad either. Happy Birthday Liz! And her smokers no ventalation car. Lol. It was pretty rad. Got everything done, vaccumed but it was no big.
Thursday (an on-going day 6) ... I stayed home from school with an upset stomach. Aunt Roseann came down to visit, and I had toast with hot tea. YUM! My grandmom's on me, again. Now about she doesn't want money withdrawn from her credit card because I cannot afford $20 to add minutes on my phone. Hopefully me deleting the information off of my account, will deactivate my option of wanting $20 automatically put on whenever I reach a certain point. Anyway. And she's on me about my weight, what life has in store for me (God only knows), and she even brought Alphanso up.
Which makes me want to talk to him even MORE. I usually go to him about my grandmom troubles, and such. But now, since I'm on my hiatus... I don't have his perspective of things. I'm going to call him... ehh, before I go to work. Hopefully he'll see I called, and maybe call back. Andrew said he's okay and everything, but angry at me and upset with me since I am not outspoken. Which kind of makes sense. I've been a certain someone... in our non-bf/gf relationship. Getting walked over, and him being able to control my emotions. Yeah, not pretty. Anyway, I'm going to go. Hopefully all is well, to whomever reads this.
Bye.
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[15 Nov 2005|10:45am] |
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Saturday, 12th (day one of NOT talking to Alphanso)
I went to Presby's bizarre with Alicia, Andrew, and Brandi. Alicia had to work, so then it was off to Diary Queen for ice cream with Andrew and Brandi. Then we just hung out for an hour, at the most in Wawa parking lot. Then I had work at 4. And what fun it was. Bargaining with a guy for his digital camera door prize. Dancing it up. So much, I had fun. Anyway...
Sunday, 13th (day two)
No church, I did homework all day. Watched the young love special crap on Comedy Central with movies such as, 10 Things I Hate About You, & She's All That. Lol. Anywho...
Monday, 14th (day three)
Happy Birthday to my cousin Phil, aka TRE! Lol. I took a mini-catnap. Visited Andrew at Starbucks, and actually got something. It was, this. VERY GOOD! VERY GOOD, INDEED! Lol. Then it was Wawa for some grub before the game. And then we went to her house. And I grubbed. Then the game started, and we both grubbed. I went home at half-time, and I talked on the phone with Andrew until his phone died.
Tuesday, 15th (on-going day four)
I banged into my telephone pole this morning. And my mirror is like, broken. And I just ... grr! I'm having a bad day. But it was most relaxing as I fell asleep in first and second block, so far. I'm in I-Block now, DUH! And then I'm off to third. Whoopy. Anywho... my agenda for this week is as follows:
Today - work at Wawa. Wednesday, Thursday and Saturday - work at Presidential. I'm in the moolah. Whoopy.
AHH ANNOUNCMENTS! BRB...
yeah - I hate the pledge, and the whole silent shit. Anyway... I'm off to have a shitty day.
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[12 Nov 2005|02:04am] |
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Friday.
Went in late to school as I laid in my bed un-decided if I should go or not. So yeah, when it hit me, at like 8:05 - I decided to go. I missed Hutton's performance though damnit. Lol. Anyway...Second block was pretty chill. We all just chatted, and discussed stuff. I-Block, Will was doing a documentary of Dan... and apparently I shall be blurred out for it. I'm angered. I was filmed doing the pledge, how lame. Lol. Anywho...Third block. Guest speaker. C Lunch with Jess and Lauren. Fun stuff. Debated whether I'd skip or go to fourth. I went. And completed an enlarged gesture thingy. Although Lauren Rot's is better. Always better. Anyway...um. I went to Wawa, after the crazy traffic that didn't move an inch after school. So yeah. Chilled there for a good, ehh - 15 minutes. Went home. Chatted on the phone with Drew til he had to go. Sat on the computer, watched Simpsons, 7th Heaven...etc. Planned on chillin with my main squeeze, Greg. Ha, sike. Yeah... anyway. My uncle and cousin finally came down for the Friday night pizza. I got a chicken cheesesteak, extra cheese. Anyway. Err...umm. Then I was off to Starbuck's chillin, and chattin with Andrew. Alphanso's mommy came up. Introduced her to Greg. And Alphanso was re-informed of Greg. Yeah, apparently I act differently. Whatever. Moving on. So me and Greg sat in his soon to be all fogged up car. When we did nothing, but talk about what turns us on, and just stupid crap. I don't like hanging with him. Um...
Andrew finally got off of work. And I picked him up, we went to Amber's. And it was awesome. I have a new clique. THE BIPOLAR BUNCH! Come on, you know you're jealous. Shit, I am jealous of myself. Anywho. We did stuff. Had deep down meaningful conversation. And, watch "videos". Umm...went off to Wendy's, and the greatest chicken ever made by the black man. Andrew and his shit-smellin burger. And Amber and her wonderful free sip Frosty. Ohh, good times. Yeah, and I had made sure they didn't make me laugh as I drank. But Alicia and her randomness (I love it) made me spew. Lol, then we were just talking about dry-humping, and sex. And more sexual things. It was fun. and Madison Corporate Bank shit on Colwell for Alicia to look for a cat. Lol. No, in reality she threw up. Off to Wawa, where we stayed in there for about 10 minutes. Then I dropped them off. And me and Andrew... oh boy. CRAZY! He threw away my trash, and then threw my offered cookie at my windshield. I felt un-loved. I'm over it. Anywho. My night = awesome. With the EXCEPTION of Gregiferd. No me gusta, mucho! Lol.
Off to chat with the Bipolar Bunch in a chat room, b/c we're awesome and had better fun that those fuckers at Schlorgan's. Heck yes!
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[11 Nov 2005|01:36am] |
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Wednesday. Yeah, I only got done my stupid pamphlet or brochure shit. Which was poorly put together, but whatever. After school, I napped it up. Went out to MickeyD's and Diary Queen with BA. Yeah, Andrew was evil that night. We're over it, and back on good terms. Yayy. So then it was just me and Brandi, then later- Billy at her house. We watched porn. Fun times.
Thursday. I completed my resume, however; it wasn't printing. So yeah... I suck at life, and I probably screwed up my grade for English. Anyway. Umm...tonight. I did nap. I lied. I told Andrew I didn't. Tomorrow apparently is senior cut day. I shall not be particpating. But whatever... um. I watched The OC tonight. And boy am I lost. Damn baseball and its world series. Lol.
Umm...I'm a slut. And the whole relationship of me and Alphanso = hoax. Yup.
BA DA BUP BAH. I'm lovin it.
Anyway... I'm done.
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[08 Nov 2005|11:53pm] |
Monday. School. Yay, big fucking whoop. Went to BK. Smelled like it, since I apparently burped in Brandi's face. We had nothing to do, so we Wawa-ratted. Then we were told to go to the mall. So we did. We called John to see if he wanted to chill. He did. And we did. We played pool. It was fun. I won against Brandi, and JOHN! Then we got lost in Philly. I kept going straight as directed. Double D, the Kernel, me and my no sense of direction. We finally got home. John went home. So did Brandi. Then me and Alphanso hung out, and we got his Coupling DVD. I finished the first season, yay! Then I went home. Was on the computer until about ehh, 2. Went to bed.
Tuesday. Had off from school, and I woke up quarter of 1. Since Brandi had called. Yeah, so I got showered up. Went to Alphanso's house. We, well me and Tony watched Equilibrium. Because ALPHANSO FELL ASLEEP!! Yeah, I'm over it. Then the movie ended, and by that time- I was told to stop coughing, given water, Alphanso woke up, err...and then we hit each other. And I was pushed out of his house. Went to work. Worked. Got off of work. Met Chris. SURPRISINGLY. We sat in his car. Did stuff. (i.e, make-out and he had me touch [outside of the pants] his shlong)
Came home. Talked to Andrew. Yeah... I'm done.
School tomorrow. I have to do my resume and pamphlet for an advertisement of nature tomorrow for English. I-Block shall be fun.
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[07 Nov 2005|12:16am] |
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Yeah, so the rest of my day. Went pretty swell. I have asshole fuckers in my third block, that can't be mature. Finished up my benchmark, umm... yeah. Lunch was cool. Lunch is always cool. Anywho. Fourth block, I wasn't too happy with my end result art work. But whatever... I'm over it. After school, I took Maria and Gina home. And when I got home I got a phone call, which then leads into that, I took Alphanso over to Halloween Adventure for his check, then to Commerce Bank to cash it. Off to Barnes and Nobles for his mini shopping freenzy of CD and DVDs. Anywho. So I went into work late. It breezed on by. And I was off to Jess'. It was fun. I took Andrew home, went back. And had such a headache from laughing so hard. There, I met Lauren. She's cool.
Saturday. Work at Presidential. It sucked. I hate working with Maria and James. I hate them. Grr.
Sunday. Church at 11:30. Visited Andrew at Starbucks. Chatted with Sarah Lynn. Umm... went to Wawa. Home. Worked up over Alphanso, again. Cried. Slept. Woke up. Chilled. Ate dinner. Went out to Liz's house with her, James, Maria and Andrew. Came home. Been a loser on the computer since forever. Lol.
I'm done.
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[04 Nov 2005|10:39am] |
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Yeah, yesterday - November 3
I went in late to school. Survived the day without being in the majority of History of Rock and Roll. Anyways... came home. Hung out with Devon and Ryan, as we WERE supposed to smoke, but the guys (hot Ryan and Pat) didn't come through. I went home. My grandmom got me upset, like whoa. Then I did shit for her, and I went out. Hung out at Alphanso's as he did dishes, then we went to Genuardi's to visit Andrew at Starbucks, then to Blockbuster, Liberty (my guy was working, and Alphanso embarassed me in front of him), Wal-Mart, Barnes and Noble, sat outside of my house... and then I took him home like quarter after 10. Anyways...
today - November 4
I came to school ON TIME! Actually early. Really early. Haha. I'm proud of myself. Haha. Anyways. First block, yeah Fridays are actually days I look forward to. Because Sean, Mr. E, and sometimes Hart bring in their guitars and they play. And we got Steve on drums, which is awesome. Caroline's going to sing next week. Anywho. Second block, was fun- LIKE ALWAYS! GOD. Anyways... I-Block now. Evil Miss Richmond and her incapability to accept me to help me with my resume. That's okay. I'm over it. Lol. Implying about Dez. Me + Dez + Andrew = next Sunday, hang out! Isn't that like DIVINE ? I believe so. Anyway...
I got work tonight. And tomorrow. Tonight's at the Wa and tomorrow's at the Presidential bia! You're jealous. Get over it. Haha, I'm off to go on myspace. I found a loophole. Yay for me.
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[02 Nov 2005|09:35pm] |
Yeah, senior picture was cold. YAY b/c I was next to Kristen, Becky, and Heather. And I had my dog pound shirt switched around so it'd say KDip. Yeah, LOSER! Lol. Got into an accindent today. With Ryan Goldberg ♥ and Kellie Pacher. It was funny. Ryan chucking his 8th and bowl to the side of the road. It was alright though. I didn't flip a poo, b/c I knew I'm chill with Ryan and Kellie. So yeah. I went home. Fell asleep for a bit. Thought Ryan called me, but it was Billy that douche bag! Lol. Apparently, him and Brandi were coming along for the King Buffet adventure. I call up Andrew, and he's on his way home now from college. Then no later, he drives by with James and Liz in the car. Then waiting outside of King Buffet, b/c I drove and then Liz drove the other two. Andrew and Alphanso. Just fooling around, not being worth anything, boxing with Billy, "R U N"? Lol. Good times. Anywho. So we ate. Paid, and then Alphanso came over. We chilled. Until like 9. That consisted of playing video games, watched Couplings. And Wawa. Yeah, so then we just talked. Tears were shed. We didn't get to talk about what I wanted to, damnit! Lol.
I took him home. Check myspace, Ryan accepted me- SCORE! Lol. Then, hmm... yeah, bored, got nothing nor no one to talk to. Umm, blah. Updating this for Andrew apparently. Since really, he's the only one who reads this. But, err... BYE!
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[02 Nov 2005|10:03am] |
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Continuation from yesterday - November 1
I went to third block, and it was fun- ha sike! Lunch consisted of going to get my money, aka- go with Kristen and Becky to Wawa. I got a Pepperoni bagel melt, and iced tea. YUM! Went back to class. Fourth block, we started this earth/wind/fire/air project thingys. I have to go sometime during I-Block to finish my holiday card. Maybe Friday... anyway. I went home, talked to Andrew for a little bit, took a nap, was late for work, work 4-9. Came home, talked on the computer, attempted to call Alphanso, no answer- maybe because he was at work -- or avoiding me. One or both of them. Yeah, so I ended up going to bed like- quarter after 1.
Today, November 2. School today! Only a half day though. The assembly, was very informative; however, I fell asleep during like 2 minutes of it. But it felt like FOREVER, which was suh-weet. Lol. Came back to I-Block and did a little activity... "I Stand For..." I said, Freedom of Speech! Passed out by the radiator, woke up to Dan Drinker calling me 'Big Baby' and 'Miss Piggy'. Dude, I can't tell you what I'm feeling. It's like shocked, with upset feeling. Dan Drinker .. called me fat. (more or less)
We, seniors, have our infamous senior picture today. In just like 5 minutes. But the plan for today, is go home and sleep until Andrew gets home and we go to Kings Buffet. YUM! I need gas though, if I'm going to be the one driving.
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[01 Nov 2005|10:28am] |
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Yeah, so...
Sunday - October 30
Went up to Shady Brook Farms, and saw the Click 5. The infamous story of bitches that just stand at a concert. And are allergic to annoying people. (i.e, me, Brandi, and Andrew) It was funny because Billy said, "EVERYTIME". Which is true, everytime- at a concert, football game - we find some way to cause a fight or whatnot. But whatever. Got home, went to Stipa's, and watched Hocus Pocus.
Monday - October 31
Happy Halloween! Lol. I was sick from school. Took Andrew to take pictures, and I went to Wawa for something sweet. Back to Andrew's house, walked his doggy Buddy, and Alphanso asked for me to pick-up him from Halloween Adventure. Dumb ass me, went to Genuardi's. Yeah... he finally got picked up by his momma, and went out to eat with her and his lil' brother. Then he came over, as trick-or-treaters came to Andrew's house. We watched the end of Halloween Resurrection. They all scared me, those fuckers! Because Sounds of the Seasons had the infamous Halloween music. Liz, James, Maria, Loftus, Gina, and lil' Vincent came by in their costumes. Then me and Alphanso went to Blockbuster- and saw Ally and more of her legs then I wanted to. But yakno Alphanso... he saw just the right amount. ERR! Anyway. That got me mad, and he wanted to talk about it then and there. But me, "getting my mind in the way" wanted to wait. Yeah, so we watched Amityville Horror. That kind of bugged me out, sorta. I attempted to talk about it, as I took him home. But I quote, he said- "I give up on you, Kim." Which means, he's not going to even try to find out what's wrong or care for me anymore. That's my interpretation. Whatever. That got me upset. REAL UPSET. UPSET INTO TODAY. Now, I'm depressing myself with the music I'm currently listening to.
Yeah, so today- Tuesday, November 1
I came in late to school, quiet (which is odd) in first block and more talkative in second. I talked of my conflict, and I admitted to the fact it's a cycle. I want to break it, and ughhh! I feel like crying. But since I'm in I-Block, I don't want to show my emotion. Yeah, work today. Don't want to go. But I'm going to... anyway: Tomorrow's a half-day, thank GOD! But all day it's an assembly on a Holocaust survivor. Ughh... joy! Whatever though. Hopefully my lunch posse didn't go with what they said they'd do today. Leave after second. If they did, I'm alone. All alone. With the acception of Maria, Gina, and maybe Nicole. Oh and KELLY GRAHM! That girl goes with my cousin. Who, hey... is like right behind me. Anyway... I'm off not to enjoy my day, but to strongly dislike and hate my day. Like always.
I miss last year.
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